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Friday, January 16, 2009

Time just flies.

And well, I guess today is the last day I am going to Swiss Cottage on a typical day. Today is the last day I am selling uniform in Swiss.

You see, I just realized it early this year that the days I have left in Swiss Cottage is limited. O yes, I guess its probably too late to regret now, but I wish I had cherished more of the times as I spent my years there.

I remember the first day of my Sec1. The sky was pouring as my mum walked me to the gate. As we were walking there, I remembered peering curiously at a group of Swiss girls walking ahead of us. Then, when walked into school, I got lost, and took a whole ten minutes to find the hall. Then I saw Jiayi, who was going "Yan Lam, I finally found you.."

And then I also remember thinking how odd it is in secondary school when the pupils are in charge of everything and the teachers just lay back. I remember thinking how kind swiss teachers are, unlike pri sch teachers who would scream, shout, and kick a big fuss about something you have done wrong. I also remember being the shy, quiet girl who seldom talks. I remember being the maths rep, collecting math books and also being in charge of the notice board. I will never forget the day when I ran away from Chinese dance and went to Guides instead. But sadly, my performance then was poor. I could not shout loud enough, do the drills "accurately" and was always being picked by the seniors. Till now I still don't understand why, but I didn't dislike Guides the least bit then.

In sec2, things went on a turnaround. I guess it was the happiest year in my entire secondary life. i remember acing most of the subjects, topping in class for lit too. My, the feeling was wonderful man! And then I also got the patrol second position, which was kinda unexpected when you look at my sec1 performance. The seniors told me I improved drastically. You know, I couldn't have been anymore happier in guides then. I loved my guide friends too. And oh yes, I remember having a crush on him too. Well, I don't think I'll ever forget that experience in my life. Its too hard to forget, I guess.

The sec3 life I experienced was a hundred-and-eighty degrees turn from my sec2 life. While I seemed to do excellently in my sec2 academic, my sec3 results were utterly terrible, especially amaths. My relationship with teachers were bad, especially miss Lim and Mdm Tang. Remember the sports day incident and the parent-teacher meeting incident? I guess I have never been that rude to teachers before in secondary school. For dunno what reason I also have a feeling that some of my classmates don't like me, even if I'm just being paraniod. This year is also the year I started not finishing my exam papers. Not being in the same class as him is also a terrible feeling you know. And most importantly, the group I am hanging out with in guide is falling apart..

My sec4 life is simple and plain, and also stayed out of trouble. In class, I hung out most of the time with Cailin and Wanling, and sometimes with Kasturi, Sammini and some others. In guides, I also also kept a low profile. On the bright side, my grades also started improving. I seldom go out with friends that year, cuz most of my free time are spent studying. I think I never saw our teachers so caring and spent so much effort and time on us before, especially Mrs Wong, Mr Ngoh and Mdm Tan. I will miss them. And yes, I thought I got over him already, but then...
Sometimes I even wonder if he knows. Many a times, I asked myself why am I even doing this, feeling like this, but I can't even find a reason myself.

And now: THINGS I WILL MISS ABOUT LESSON DAYS

1)Cailin, Wanling, and me sit together during recess and talk about random things.

2)Running into him anywhere in school, seeing him smile, and hearing him say Hi to me.

3)Mr Ngoh, his funny jokes and teasing during maths lesson. Emotional yet playful, I guess he is the type I will like...

4)Mdm Tan and her constant urging. She would go "Yan Lam ar..Slow and steady wins the race..". And well, I love her cute expressions and antics.

5) Mrs Wong nagging at us saying that we must all get As

6)Marvelling at the "pro" people in my class

7)Slapping, teasing and playing tricks on Kasturi for fun

8)Stall 5 food

9)Walking home with Cailin after school

10)Staying back after school with Cailin and telling her about my "obsessions"

11)Going bubble tea shop with Yixin, Amanda and sometimes Weiyun after school.

12)The peaceful serenity of the morning as I walk to school

Next: THINGS I WILL MISS ABOUT GUIDES

1)Shouting "Yes Maám" at the top of my voice

2)Staying back after guides in sec2 to talk and eat snacks

3)Looking at him in his cca from across mine:)

4)Outings, especially the amazing race at Sentosa and Raffles Place

5)Wearing guide uniform, especially the yearly thinking day

6)Pumpings, running and drills (no offense, but I really miss it)

7)Gossiping about teachers to juniors

8)Playing with Gabrielle's hair and poking her

9)Looking at Kasturi do funny things

Lastly: THINGS I WILL MISS ABOUT MY JOB IN SWISS

1)Sitting from across my counter and observe the people as they walk to and fro across the canteen

2)Talking to teachers and smiling at them when I walk pass them

3)Arranging and finding stocks

4)Talking to people while serving them

5)Getting up from my counter and poking Gabby when I spot her nearby

6)Slacking and getting paid (Duh?)

Well, I guess this shall be a short legacy of my experience in Swiss Cottage. I will definitely miss the sights and sounds of Swiss. And I'll cherish the memories, though it may slowly fade away as time passes.

As I headed out of the gates, I wonder when I will return to this all too familiar place, a place where I spent four unforgettable years, bearing both happy and painful memories, a place where I flashed numerous smiles and shed plenty of tears. I took a last stare,trying to get everything into my head and stepped out of the gates. ~~~

she told the story ... 10:44 PM